I am very weak at that subject.

Yesterday was I went back to school for the Seminar about Direct Polytechnic Admission.

Glad that DPA needs my secondary 3/4 results.

I did pretty well for last year.

Even though I am strong Maths and Science, I still would prefer IT courses.

True enough, engineering needs a good foundation of A Math.

The COP of Engineering and IT courses are equally low.

You rarely see courses COP above 20.

Especially, a lot of JC eligible students are choosing the Polytechnic route.

That's why Polytechnics are raising the standard.

It is very competitive, and I have to fight my way in.

It really give me the fear that half of my school's secondary 4 cohort may not make it to Polytechnics.

Those A(s) reflected in your report book when you are in Secondary 1-3 are seriously nothing.

The highest COP I saw was 23, and that's only for one course, the rest are 20 and below.

After all, you don't study as a class, you study individually.

I am more interested to gaming architecture and programming.

I am able to see that my standard is around there.

My results are fairly of the top in class.

But my social background in school isn't very good.

A lot of times, I just find it hard to get along with people and I don't know why.

There is this guy I still can't seem to stand him in my class.

They can victimize me anytime they want, then when I victimized them back...

they report to teacher whatever sort.

It completely doesn't make sense, I simply hate them.

People who don't know how to study well, always playing, shouting, talking shit,

make other people's lives miserable.

Intellectuals don't do these things, do they?

It is just a school of playful students that I surrounded with,

and I am of the indoor and study type.

I don't know why is this happening to me, I can't do anything, I let it go on.

At times of happening, I asked myself why did that person, those guys shot me at the back.

Not only at the times of happening, I went home angered and still thinking about it.

What is so different between you and me?

I update my Facebook very frequently, people tend to get offended.

They become cold towards me in school, it looks like I am asking for it, isn't it?

I am just hard to get along with people, I take care of myself more when I am outside.

When people come over my boundary, I get very uneasy, I will attack back.

This very small boundary of defense is what I always carry around.

SOMETIMES, I JUST WANT TO ASK WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!

SOMETIMES, PEOPLE JUST CROSS THE LINE, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEM?

I HOPE THEY WILL FALL ONE DAY...ONE DAY, THEY WILL FALL.